Life’s been hard – it’s been quite difficult. I’ve had a lot of problems since my heart transplant, to be honest. Had a lot of infections and all that stuff going on, like gout – I get a lot of gout in my muscles and my bones, because of my tablets I’m taking. Plus my kidneys is really, really bad.

I seem to be in hospital every three month, four month – I’m always in hospital because of something. And this has been going on for the last 10 years. But I’ve just got to get on with it, and, you know, it’s life. You get dealt a pack of cards, and you’ve got to stick with them cards the rest of your life. When I had the chance of life, I thought to myself, you know, it’s a new start. And now I look back, I think to myself, maybe I was wrong, maybe I shouldn’t, you know, maybe I should have never come through my heart attack. I should have died there and then – that would have been a lot simpler, I suppose, because of the pain I’ve been through.

Even now I’ve still got pain. I’m on so many tablets – for pain and infections. And now my kidneys is shot. It looks like I’ve got to have a kidney transplant within the next year and a half, so I’ve been told. So, things are still looking bleak. But I’ve just got to get on with it and just plod on, and hopefully one day life will change for the better for us. I think that’s it.

I dunno, I just wish life would have been a lot, you know – easier, simpler – but I just can’t forget the pain I’ve had. I think that’s the most, the major thing – I’ve cried some nights, it's been so hard, been so in pain. I wished I was dead, you know – I mean, I’ve been crying with pain. So I just live from day to day now, just hoping and praying things will get better. Maybe they won't, maybe they will.